That's me... Once in a while, I'll tend to do something I'll probably regret in the long run.. Once in a while, I'll do something so stupid I feel like burying my head in the ground... Once in a while, I just do things that's totally out of the norm...
The past week had been a troubling week for me... I had been thinking about a lot of things... Besides delaying my momentum to start mugging.. and also missing my summer holiday... And the PMS added on to all the LOW points in my daily life... I started to feel uncomfortable.. I'm not my normal cheerful self... I don't find joy in things I do.. it was especially bad cause I was broke! my scholarship money had not been deposited into my bank account.. thus, I could not even eat good food to counter my depression...
Yesterday night, I plucked up enough courage... after 2 nights of alcohol drinking (plus plenty of nausea and headache and lack of sleep).. I confronted my problem... my point of confusion... my LOW point.. I did what I only do once in a blue moon...
I got the answer to the questions that had been bugging me... It was not the perfect answer, but at least I'd got an answer... Did that clear my problems? Did that lift me out from my LOW points... Did I regret what I did?
I guess not. There was no regret for what I did to get the answer..
There is just a feeling of emptiness now... a feeling that it's over now... Will it ever be the same again?
I really hope the rainbow will come out after the thunderstorm.
Feeling rather lousy :(
at least i can start to concentrate on readings now...
