Argh!!

The thing i hate most about being an adult is making decisions!
Why is it always so hard for me to decide on something? I decide then I change my mind and then decide again.. and most probably regretting it later. Argh!!

My heart wants something that my head does not want. My head says money is a big problem and courage is another problem. My heart says it's a rare chance!~

But for now, I shall let the decision be in my dad's hand. If he says "Yes", I will definitely go ahead. If he says "No", I will not think about it anymore. Thank God for creating fathers and mothers.. and family.. :)

Was just telling my friend in MSN, 'other than my father, mother, family and friends, I want to change everything else in my life..' I am searching for an aim in life now.. I really hope I can find it soon.. Something to loOk forward to or to achieve.

Other than the 'have to work hard when graduate to repay my parents and sis' kinda aim...

Tired of thinking and deciding .....................................