When you have too much time.. and nothing to do...
My wisdom tooth just got extracted.. so my face is swollen on the left side.. and I can't eat normal food.. which is very sad.. and I can hardly talk.. which is also sad... My mom asked me to rest more but i can't sleep.. which is also very sad... I think i sleep too much at home.. not as much as some people can sleep.. I think I have sleeping disorder.. Was reading my sister's magazine the other day and saw this article on sleeping disorder... There was a questionaire to determine whether you are having sleep disorder and I answered yes to nearly all the questions .. which was bad.. means I have some sort of sleep disorder.. When I was younger and had the luxury of sleeping more than 8 hours a day, I could not sleep at night.. I needed an hour or so to fall asleep and then would be asleep for 2 hours or so before waking up again.. and had to count sheeps till I don't know how many before I can fall asleep again.. When I did sleep, I would have nightmares.. sometimes screaming till both my parents came running into my room... Now that I have less time to sleep, there was no such problems cause I would usually be too tired to have any dreams.. and too little time to dream anyway.. But now, I get more sleep since it's the holiday.. And since I don't usually take afternoon nap, I can't really sleep in the day..
Back to the topic of too much time.. I had been thinking a lot.. about this and that.. and funny things... then i started to think that some people can have very negative views on everything! and it got me thinking how all these negative thinking are affecting the person.. I, myself had been in such a phase, I remembered.. but I hope anyone in such a phase of negative thinking gets out of it fast.. When you start seeing the world in a more positive way.. not everyone is against you.. not everyone has negative thoughts or wants to hurt you physically or mentally... I do think negatively sometimes, especially with with habit of blaming things and people... But I try to get rid of those evil thoughts.. Maybe cause I'm at home, well-fed and happy.. I think the world is not a bad place after all.. minus all the stress and all the decisions we have to make in our lives.. I had been thinking of saving more money also.. so that I can save enough to go travel again.. funny how a 7-day trip has impacted on me.. Funny how I am interested in everything Japanese.. haha.. impressionable person I am.. shallow also.. My friend said something not too nice about Jap guys.. but then I still think they are good looking.. and great hair styles.. haha..
